Well, once again, this has no real topic or feature.
I'm not writing about beauty products, or Lush baths, or what I've bought recently, this is just a catch up/rambling/wondering what the hell I am doing.
I can't actually bring myself to write at all anymore. Everything's gone. All motivation, inspiration and words.
I feel like I am just floating through one disaster to the next. I'm still me though, which means I am still holding on to that little bit of hope that things HAVE to get better.
This year has been incredible. I can't believe we're in April. 4 months into, genuinely, the worst year of my life.
I have already written this year off completely. This post is going to sound like a total pity party, but it's really not, I just have no idea what the hell is going on anymore. I have no control over anything and I have seriously just lost any kind of normalcy I ever had about me.
After my nan, I thought we had to be done with our bad luck for the year. Then my Pop's started acting weird, ignoring us, not talking, mood swings, forgetfulness. At first we put it down to grief and annoyance that we were always there and he never had a minute to himself, we were smothering him, but we love him so much that it was so hard not to. Then he started struggling to walk, which was weird because it just came from nowhere, so my mum and Aunty took him to the hospital and he was kept in for tests, he was in for around 4/5 days but all tests came back fine and then he forgot any of us had even been in to visit him and the doctors finally scanned his brain and he was transferred to another hospital immediately for surgery, he had a massive bleed on his brain.
I HATE admitting this, but I truly believe in real life, real, real love and that is because of my Nan & Grandad, and I believe when one goes, it seriously is like a part of the one left behind goes too and I believe a broken heart can kill you, obviously, your heart doesn't physically break in two, but you just give up, what else is there when you are only half of a whole and you'll never be complete again? I get it, and its terrifying, because I seriously, for a bit, thought that was it, my Pop's was going to give up. I don't think I could have coped at all with that. Amazingly, hours after surgery, he was completely himself, better than I had ever seen him since my Nan passed away, it was insane!! But I am so, so thankful and grateful to still have him singing to me and slow dancing with me (even if I can't stand on his feet anymore!) and making me breakfast or making me sit through sky sports news ALL afternoon, I will NEVER take that for granted again!
If I ever find a real man, that is ever even half of the man my Grandad is, I will be the luckiest girl alive.
I don't know where it came from, I'm not one for dates and all that stuff, it's just not for me, I just want to be able to lay in bed in my comfies, cuddled up, having the odd squabble watching shit tv and eating food. That to me, is perfect. But yeah, so, I went on a date, I wouldn't really call it a date though, because I kinda knew him anyway so I guess it was like a catch up with a drink, and it was weird because I was so nervous and scared and I actually ended up having a lot of fun and I didn't want it to end. Normally, in that situation, I am dying to get away and it feels like the longest couple of hours ever but this was easy. I should have known then that I wasn't in the right mind to start seeing someone, I don't just like someone straight off, I have to get to know them first, that's what my best mates say about me, I'm all in or all out, there is no inbetween so I don't usually take 'dating' very seriously because, I always get to know them first then it just kind of...goes one way or the other. I don't like not knowing where I stand or what the other person thinks of the situation, I can be quite closed off but jeez, when it's like getting blood from a stone it does things to my brain haha. Like, I don't get it at all, like if you say you like me then okay, but if you don't then don't say you do... Is that not just general human decency? Anyway yeah thats neither here nor there with this situation.
I was having the shittest time, all of this stuff with my grandad was going down and you know when you need to just be out of it? like, away from your reality, not with your friends, not with your family, just away, with someone who makes you feel good and is nice, and not a part of the shit stuff? I guess this was that and I was so grateful for it and kind of lost my footing, I turned into something I'm not, I came across needy and clingy and not me. HOWEVER, when I do think I've done someone's head in, and they're just like, letting me carry on thinking that and just stop responding - I know that's a hint, but then when they do respond and they're nice, it's confusing, I can't settle, I worry, not if it's someone I don't give a shit about obviously, but if I care about you, you'll know about it, I have to fix the relationships I have, I don't like bad feelings so I just try and try and I get annoying. I know that's my own doing but I got too much, and I know it, and I am seriously kicking myself for it, but my head just wasn't/isn't right. It's such a shame, this person was so nice to be around, just listening to the things they were saying and the way they'd talk, made me want to be better and nicer, it's weird. I guess different people bring different things out in you, especially new people. It's also a shame we can't be friends. It was good to talk music and vinyl and shitty movies and tv shows and whatever other random crap came up. There are some people you just can't say a bad word about. And it's nice. Ah well, if you fuck up all you can do is try I guess!
Somewhere in the middle of my grandad, oh, and me turning into a bunny boiler, I got sick. Really sick. I also think half of the bunny boiler in me was born out of boredom and being alone all the time while I was sick, because spending 3 weeks alone is pretty rough - and I bloody love being alone!
I thought I had eaten gluten as I woke up in the middle of the night with stomach pains, then I started being sick....and didn't stop for about 27 hours - yes, that specific, it felt like a lifetime to me! But my stomach was still hurting so bad. I thought I had pulled a muscle or something from being sick, so I went to the doctor, who sent me for bloods and they came back a little weird, so needless to say I still don't know what's wrong with me, I have to go for more tests in a couple of weeks to keep my eye on my levels so they can build a pattern...yay, don't ya just love being stabbed with a needle?!
So yeah, that's where I'm at right now. I don't really know anything about anything, I just have more questions than answers.
I do have one of my best friends constantly at my side lately though, he buy's me weird tea and we make plans and I think he's right, I just need to get away. Away, away though, and for a while. I am seriously considering it. There's just nothing here and what is here is a mess. I just can't seem to make anything right so maybe a step back is just what I need to do. Then come back when I'm fresh and focused. I want to start a real life now, I'm so over going out and getting drunk and living like a teenager. I'm not. I'm 27 now - oh yeah, my birthday was all up in the middle of that big ol' mess! haha! I want to start my life. I'm not saying I want to get married and have 10 babies this year or anything, but you know, I'm not doing anything notable or anything I'm going to be so grateful I did when I look back in 50 years, know what I mean?
Well, I'm off to google places to run away to, so fed up of being stuck nowhere!
I actually feel a bit better and happier at the end of this essay! I feel like I've made a decision to do something for myself!!!
Wednesday, 22 April 2015
Monday, 26 January 2015
Pretty Personal.
I had every intention of keeping updated with my blog but everything is a bit complicated at the minute.
Work is stressful, when it really doesn't need to be, I'm just making it that way for myself.
I also recently lost my best friend in the whole, wide world. My Nana Janet.
She was everything to me.
It was really sudden and I think we re all still in shock.
She was the loudest, funniest, most caring, kind and selfless person I have ever had the pleasure of knowing.
I am devastated to be completely honest.
She just went to sleep and never woke up. My poor Pop's is lost.
She suffered a massive stroke and brain haemorrhage in her sleep. They were the words used in the hospital, however I definitely think 'suffered' was the wrong word.
She was in a coma for 4 long days, the 4 longest days of my life.
We never left her side, so much so, they gave us a family room at the hospital and access to their kitchen so we could take it in turns to go eat or nap, at one point there were over 20 of us in the hospital, friends and family all coming to say their goodbyes. The staff were incredible.
She just looked sound asleep, well, I suppose she was just fast asleep.
I know this is such a weird thing to say but it was lovely having those 4 days with her, even though she was asleep and couldn't join in.
We played her music and put Emmerdale and 'Connie' (Corrie to the rest of us!) on for her and on New Years Eve, we all sat around telling stories about her and singing and talking to her and at midnight we opened the curtains and could see the fireworks.
Luckily, my cousin who lives in Abu Dhabi, was home for Christmas so all the time we spent together over Christmas was even more special because we were ALL together.
I honestly can't believe she is gone, I can't imagine my life without her in it.
Nothing is the same. Even me, I feel completely different in a way I can't explain.
I want to be more like her. She was everyone's friend and never said a bad word about anyone.
There was a girl who lived by her that she used to call, 'my little friend', she has known this girl since she was tiny and never forgot a birthday or Christmas card. 4/5 years ago, this girl was attacked by a dog and it disfigured her face and she never left the house other than for surgery after that and wouldn't see anybody and for the last 4/5 years, my nan visited her every week or so, and at first she wouldn't let her in, but my nan still kept going just to see how she was, then it became that my nan was one of the very few people besides her own family that she would see. My nan thought the world of this girl and used to send me to Lush every year to buy her a nice set for Christmas, same this year, only she went with my sister this year and picked it herself.
None of us have seen this girl since she was a kid because she doesn't go out of the house, so we just assumed she wouldn't come to the funeral.
We were at the funeral and my Grandad smiled a huge, heartfelt grin. She turned up. Someone who hadn't been out in 4 years actually came out, which I think is super brave and really, really says a lot about my nan and made my Grandads day. It meant so much to him, I think he wanted her there most and was rooting for her and hoping so hard that she'd come.
I managed to speak to her and she is so beautiful just like my nan always said. She said some really lovely things, I introduced myself and she started crying and saying she couldn't believe it, she had only seen her the other day when she brought her Christmas present, she said my nan was one of the loveliest, most patient, kind people she had ever met. This meant so much to me, seeing this girl standing in a church full of people, which must have been so hard for her, but she couldn't not go after everything my nan had done for her.
I just keep thinking how lucky I was to have had her in my life and how lucky I am that we had the relationship we did. I am so proud to be her granddaughter.
I am going to try my hardest to be more like her, I like to think some of her goodness is in me and I can start trying to be as selfless as she was.
Yeah so, I don't know how often I will be updating but if you stick around anyway, then thank you! && thanks for reading this, I just wanted somewhere to write it. I don't think I've done her justice but my nan and the love I have for her is something I can't possibly put into words.
Work is stressful, when it really doesn't need to be, I'm just making it that way for myself.
I also recently lost my best friend in the whole, wide world. My Nana Janet.
She was everything to me.
It was really sudden and I think we re all still in shock.
She was the loudest, funniest, most caring, kind and selfless person I have ever had the pleasure of knowing.
I am devastated to be completely honest.
She just went to sleep and never woke up. My poor Pop's is lost.
She suffered a massive stroke and brain haemorrhage in her sleep. They were the words used in the hospital, however I definitely think 'suffered' was the wrong word.
She was in a coma for 4 long days, the 4 longest days of my life.
We never left her side, so much so, they gave us a family room at the hospital and access to their kitchen so we could take it in turns to go eat or nap, at one point there were over 20 of us in the hospital, friends and family all coming to say their goodbyes. The staff were incredible.
She just looked sound asleep, well, I suppose she was just fast asleep.
I know this is such a weird thing to say but it was lovely having those 4 days with her, even though she was asleep and couldn't join in.
We played her music and put Emmerdale and 'Connie' (Corrie to the rest of us!) on for her and on New Years Eve, we all sat around telling stories about her and singing and talking to her and at midnight we opened the curtains and could see the fireworks.
Luckily, my cousin who lives in Abu Dhabi, was home for Christmas so all the time we spent together over Christmas was even more special because we were ALL together.
I honestly can't believe she is gone, I can't imagine my life without her in it.
Nothing is the same. Even me, I feel completely different in a way I can't explain.
I want to be more like her. She was everyone's friend and never said a bad word about anyone.
There was a girl who lived by her that she used to call, 'my little friend', she has known this girl since she was tiny and never forgot a birthday or Christmas card. 4/5 years ago, this girl was attacked by a dog and it disfigured her face and she never left the house other than for surgery after that and wouldn't see anybody and for the last 4/5 years, my nan visited her every week or so, and at first she wouldn't let her in, but my nan still kept going just to see how she was, then it became that my nan was one of the very few people besides her own family that she would see. My nan thought the world of this girl and used to send me to Lush every year to buy her a nice set for Christmas, same this year, only she went with my sister this year and picked it herself.
None of us have seen this girl since she was a kid because she doesn't go out of the house, so we just assumed she wouldn't come to the funeral.
We were at the funeral and my Grandad smiled a huge, heartfelt grin. She turned up. Someone who hadn't been out in 4 years actually came out, which I think is super brave and really, really says a lot about my nan and made my Grandads day. It meant so much to him, I think he wanted her there most and was rooting for her and hoping so hard that she'd come.
I managed to speak to her and she is so beautiful just like my nan always said. She said some really lovely things, I introduced myself and she started crying and saying she couldn't believe it, she had only seen her the other day when she brought her Christmas present, she said my nan was one of the loveliest, most patient, kind people she had ever met. This meant so much to me, seeing this girl standing in a church full of people, which must have been so hard for her, but she couldn't not go after everything my nan had done for her.
I just keep thinking how lucky I was to have had her in my life and how lucky I am that we had the relationship we did. I am so proud to be her granddaughter.
I am going to try my hardest to be more like her, I like to think some of her goodness is in me and I can start trying to be as selfless as she was.
Yeah so, I don't know how often I will be updating but if you stick around anyway, then thank you! && thanks for reading this, I just wanted somewhere to write it. I don't think I've done her justice but my nan and the love I have for her is something I can't possibly put into words.
Tuesday, 16 December 2014
It's Getting Closer...
Well, Christmas is well and truly on it's way!
I love Christmas. I just love it. But seriously, where has this year gone?!?!
I seemed to have blinked and it's just completely flown by me.
I've been pretty crappy the last couple of weeks, keep getting sick and I'm sick right now in bed, with a towel on my head procrastinating. I need to dry my hair to go to work but I just feel awful and really don't want to.
I haven't posted in a while so thought I would just write a little quick catch up.
I've really not been up to much, working and being sick is about the jist of it.
Oh! I did go see Mariachi El Bronx last week though with one of my best mates. They were SO, SO, SO good!! I had THE best night!....the next day definitely wasn't so much fun :s
Other than that, I've seriously not done much which is a kinda rubbish way to end a year.
But hey, that can all change in a second so hopefully I'll be feeling better soon and can actually do something fun!
I got a snap the other day of a local paper from someone who has been gone for a long time.... I mean we stayed in touch but they're back from their travels!! So that was nice! I don't know why this made me so happy but it did!
I can't think of what else to say other than I may try add to this later because I have to go dry my hair and go to work, which sucks. I would much rather stay in bed where I can puke alone, not in front of a shop full of customers....I can just see it now....Oh, why do I think these things?.. haha! This better not happen to me now!
Anyways,
Laters!
I love Christmas. I just love it. But seriously, where has this year gone?!?!
I seemed to have blinked and it's just completely flown by me.
I've been pretty crappy the last couple of weeks, keep getting sick and I'm sick right now in bed, with a towel on my head procrastinating. I need to dry my hair to go to work but I just feel awful and really don't want to.
I haven't posted in a while so thought I would just write a little quick catch up.
I've really not been up to much, working and being sick is about the jist of it.
Oh! I did go see Mariachi El Bronx last week though with one of my best mates. They were SO, SO, SO good!! I had THE best night!....the next day definitely wasn't so much fun :s
Other than that, I've seriously not done much which is a kinda rubbish way to end a year.
But hey, that can all change in a second so hopefully I'll be feeling better soon and can actually do something fun!
I got a snap the other day of a local paper from someone who has been gone for a long time.... I mean we stayed in touch but they're back from their travels!! So that was nice! I don't know why this made me so happy but it did!
I can't think of what else to say other than I may try add to this later because I have to go dry my hair and go to work, which sucks. I would much rather stay in bed where I can puke alone, not in front of a shop full of customers....I can just see it now....Oh, why do I think these things?.. haha! This better not happen to me now!
Anyways,
Laters!
Tuesday, 11 November 2014
Because Sometimes...
Because sometimes I just need to be alone, and eat pizza, and drink hot chocolate, and watch girly movies in bed all cosy. I also invite a friend on the odd occasion!
I seriously love winter and love cosy nights in in my PJ's.
I love winter clothes, big jumpers and boots and stuff are the best but you just can't beat a good cosy pair of pjs and slippers or socks as the nights grow longer and colder!
I cant be the only one?!
Do you do this too?!
What movies/snacks would you choose??
xo
Friday, 24 October 2014
Monday, 13 October 2014
Wednesday's Child Is Full of Woe...
OKAY, so it's not Wednesday but hey, Halloween is fast approaching and it is definitely one of my favourite celebrations! I genuinely love it and look forward to it all year!!
October is my favourite month.
It is my Mum's birthday, it's autumn, everywhere is colourful, the weather is amazing and there are Halloween themed items in all of the shops!
I love skulls so thought I would post a little skull/Halloween themed inspiration board to get you in the mood - if you're not already!
I don't actually think I know anyone that DOESN'T like Halloween.
It's just a fun time! So get in the spirit!
It falls on a Friday this year and unfortunately I'll be in work Saturday morning but that's fine, I will postpone a day then I will dress up, get bloody looking cocktails at the ready and head out!
Actual Halloween will most probably be spent tucked up at home with my pumpkin spice candles burning, having a horror fest!
I couldn't be more excited!!
P.s - how amazing is this bedding?!?!
Monday, 29 September 2014
Hi Ho, Hi Ho....
It's off to work I go!!
Ok, so I've been looking for a job for a while now and let me tell you, it is NOT easy.
The only way you seem to be able to get a job these days is through someone you know, which is extremely frustrating!!
I absolutely HATE job searching, and it's not like there are new vacancies every single day.
It just gets really old, really fast and it really, really gets you down.
I've done hair here and there, but I can't imagine working in a salon. Doing hair was something I enjoyed doing, but my college experience ruined it. My course was completely rushed and I recently found out we were taught in shortcuts and the people who went back for level 3 had to be taught the real way to do things, so that was a total blow and I've lost confidence in myself because I feel like I don't know what I'm doing, even though I know I actually do because I actually read up and watched videos and demo's constantly.
ANYWAY.
I have a job finally!
And I think I'm gonna really like it! It's an unusual one, which I like, and I get to learn loads and travel a bit.
People are going to have opinions on this no matter what, because people always do and that's fine, I have my own opinion, so you're more than welcome to have your own but I'm still excited and find it really interesting.
I'm going to be a tobacconist.
The shop I will be working in is almost 200 years old!!
I am so excited to start tomorrow, I get to learn about pipes, cigars, tobacco....and my personal favourite, whiskey!!
I'm obviously very nervous, it's never fun being the new kid on the block but I've already done a trial shift with the people who work there and it all seems pretty interesting and the people are nice!! Which is always good!
I am so glad this is something I can get my teeth into! I've missed learning and I have been told apparently there is a qualification I can go for, 'masters of cigars', and I would be the first girl to do it! So, obviously, I want to do it so bad, and be the first girl!
It does seem like a pretty male dominated industry but I really want to get into it and become a specialist!
But we all know, besides the money, the best part of a new job is, of course, shopping for new clothes!
I have to wear black or black and white, which is fine because I live in black anyway so I already had a lot of stuff in but I ran out and got myself some pretty darn cute brogues and some trousers and I have to say, they look pretty snazzy on. I love the men's tailored look and I think that's what I'm going to be investing in, because I plan on staying in this job until I've literally done all I can with it...which I hope is never, because there will always be more to learn and more products coming out, new techniques etc.
So yeah, blazers, boyfriend coats, brogues, loafers, trousers, crisp white shirts! I can't wait to get paid!
I also needed a coat but was pretty strapped for cash, I looked everywhere, even good ol' Primark and just couldn't find one I liked, I wanted smart but structured, what's with all the weird fuzzy and bobbly textures this season?? Anyway I never think to look in Forever 21 for coats...I don't know why but I went in and there on the sale rail was a black, military/nautical boyfriend coat in my size! PERFECT! looked at the tag and it was reduced from £47.75 to £22.99 so I grabbed it and ran to the till.....rang up at £16. Was the best day ever!
I always struggle finding coats but this is a keeper! I'm not a huge fan of the gold buttons but I've pressed the collar so it is more 'boyfriend' style because I'll only wear it open anyway and I love it!!!
Ok, so I've been looking for a job for a while now and let me tell you, it is NOT easy.
The only way you seem to be able to get a job these days is through someone you know, which is extremely frustrating!!
I absolutely HATE job searching, and it's not like there are new vacancies every single day.
It just gets really old, really fast and it really, really gets you down.
I've done hair here and there, but I can't imagine working in a salon. Doing hair was something I enjoyed doing, but my college experience ruined it. My course was completely rushed and I recently found out we were taught in shortcuts and the people who went back for level 3 had to be taught the real way to do things, so that was a total blow and I've lost confidence in myself because I feel like I don't know what I'm doing, even though I know I actually do because I actually read up and watched videos and demo's constantly.
ANYWAY.
I have a job finally!
And I think I'm gonna really like it! It's an unusual one, which I like, and I get to learn loads and travel a bit.
People are going to have opinions on this no matter what, because people always do and that's fine, I have my own opinion, so you're more than welcome to have your own but I'm still excited and find it really interesting.
I'm going to be a tobacconist.
The shop I will be working in is almost 200 years old!!
I am so excited to start tomorrow, I get to learn about pipes, cigars, tobacco....and my personal favourite, whiskey!!
I'm obviously very nervous, it's never fun being the new kid on the block but I've already done a trial shift with the people who work there and it all seems pretty interesting and the people are nice!! Which is always good!
I am so glad this is something I can get my teeth into! I've missed learning and I have been told apparently there is a qualification I can go for, 'masters of cigars', and I would be the first girl to do it! So, obviously, I want to do it so bad, and be the first girl!
It does seem like a pretty male dominated industry but I really want to get into it and become a specialist!
But we all know, besides the money, the best part of a new job is, of course, shopping for new clothes!
I have to wear black or black and white, which is fine because I live in black anyway so I already had a lot of stuff in but I ran out and got myself some pretty darn cute brogues and some trousers and I have to say, they look pretty snazzy on. I love the men's tailored look and I think that's what I'm going to be investing in, because I plan on staying in this job until I've literally done all I can with it...which I hope is never, because there will always be more to learn and more products coming out, new techniques etc.
So yeah, blazers, boyfriend coats, brogues, loafers, trousers, crisp white shirts! I can't wait to get paid!
I also needed a coat but was pretty strapped for cash, I looked everywhere, even good ol' Primark and just couldn't find one I liked, I wanted smart but structured, what's with all the weird fuzzy and bobbly textures this season?? Anyway I never think to look in Forever 21 for coats...I don't know why but I went in and there on the sale rail was a black, military/nautical boyfriend coat in my size! PERFECT! looked at the tag and it was reduced from £47.75 to £22.99 so I grabbed it and ran to the till.....rang up at £16. Was the best day ever!
I always struggle finding coats but this is a keeper! I'm not a huge fan of the gold buttons but I've pressed the collar so it is more 'boyfriend' style because I'll only wear it open anyway and I love it!!!
Forever 21 coat
G21 at Asda Pants
F&F Brogues.
I just thought I'd write this post as a little update!
I think I may do a 'Back to Work' outfit post/series??
Sunday, 21 September 2014
Autumn
So yeah. How boss is autumn?? I know I've said it a hundred times but I really do love it.
Everything is so pretty and magical and...transitional...I always feel good in autumn, like old crap is going away and leaving making way for new, good things.
I've been feeling that way in particular today, I've finally seen some of the stuff I've been choosing not to see for a while now and it feels good to breathe and know it's all good! I can move on from this thing/these people. Yes, it's really quite sad but it's time to bring the good in and only the good!
So here's to that! For me and all of you!!!!!
Thursday, 18 September 2014
Monday, 15 September 2014
Autumn Leaves
I am so, so, so, so, so, annoyingly happy as I am writing this.
I think my family are grateful I've gone away to write.
Anyway.
Autumn is my absolute favourite season. I love it so, so much. If you are around me or meet me in autumn, you will get the best possible version of me!
I love wrapping up toasty with coats and hats and scarves etc.
I just love everything about it!!! I just feel so content and happy in autumn!!
I also weirdly eat a lot better in autumn. All I want to eat is orange things!
I'm constantly finding recipes for sweet potatoes, squashes, PUMPKIN! Loads!!
I love it, and I use a lot of sage and cinnamon too! ( I make a LOT of cinnamon rolls in autumn/winter, so I don't eat all that good... gluten free and vegan though! )
Heaven!
I am now officially in autumn mode because today when I went to the shops, my favourite candles of all time were back in!!!
They only sell them around Halloween and then they disappear for a year! I'm stocking up this time!
PUMPKIN SPICE HALLOWEEN CANDLES!!!!!
They used to only do little ones for 69p but this year I've found 18oz jars!!..... for £2.99!!!!!!!!
I am obsessed. They smell so, so good! Normally I find pumpkin spiced things are too heavily spiced with cinnamon or cloves (vom) but these smell good enough to eat!!!!
Also another reason I love autumn...HALLOWEEN!!! I love Halloween, it's very rare I do anything because it always turns out to be a hype then a let down but I love sitting in watching horror movies with Halloween treats and seeing all the kids dressed up trick or treating!!
And I love the all the berry colours that come out to play. I wear them all year round anyway, but I wear them practically every day in autumn!!
So yes, this is basically a 'WHY I LOVE AUTUMN' post!!
I LOVE it.
I'm going to end it there because I am too excited!!!
I think my family are grateful I've gone away to write.
Anyway.
Autumn is my absolute favourite season. I love it so, so much. If you are around me or meet me in autumn, you will get the best possible version of me!
I love wrapping up toasty with coats and hats and scarves etc.
I just love everything about it!!! I just feel so content and happy in autumn!!
I also weirdly eat a lot better in autumn. All I want to eat is orange things!
I'm constantly finding recipes for sweet potatoes, squashes, PUMPKIN! Loads!!
I love it, and I use a lot of sage and cinnamon too! ( I make a LOT of cinnamon rolls in autumn/winter, so I don't eat all that good... gluten free and vegan though! )
(They taste amazing, trust me.)
Heaven!
I am now officially in autumn mode because today when I went to the shops, my favourite candles of all time were back in!!!
They only sell them around Halloween and then they disappear for a year! I'm stocking up this time!
PUMPKIN SPICE HALLOWEEN CANDLES!!!!!
They used to only do little ones for 69p but this year I've found 18oz jars!!..... for £2.99!!!!!!!!
I am obsessed. They smell so, so good! Normally I find pumpkin spiced things are too heavily spiced with cinnamon or cloves (vom) but these smell good enough to eat!!!!
Also another reason I love autumn...HALLOWEEN!!! I love Halloween, it's very rare I do anything because it always turns out to be a hype then a let down but I love sitting in watching horror movies with Halloween treats and seeing all the kids dressed up trick or treating!!
And I love the all the berry colours that come out to play. I wear them all year round anyway, but I wear them practically every day in autumn!!
I also love cosy nights in with my favourite tea's!
Cosy, Cosy.
So yes, this is basically a 'WHY I LOVE AUTUMN' post!!
I LOVE it.
I'm going to end it there because I am too excited!!!
Friday, 12 September 2014
Boudoir Inspo.
SO I've been thinking about decorating my room for a while.
It's currently pink.Well, 'Vintage Rose', to be exact.
I'm not sure why my room is pink or why it has been pink for solong, I'm really not a pink kind of girl.
People are always really shocked when they walk in and even I still am sometimes.
I want a more grown up, monochrome look.
I've been looking around for some inspiration and came across these little bits above!
I am in love with them all.
But I need to do this on a budget. I don't want to spend a fortune because I do plan on moving out at some point in the not so distant future, but I still want it to look good so I'm going to start picking some bits up as I go and I'm gonna have a nice new room in time for christmas!
I think I'll document the process along the way and show you the finished result!
A before and after shot would be pretty interesting.
I also need to look into storage because I have a ridiculous amount of stuff and nowhere to put it so my room is pretty cluttered and it does my head in!
Well..... we'll see how it goes eh?!
Tuesday, 9 September 2014
Monday, 8 September 2014
Binge Watching.
SO, I have been doing a lot of binge watching lately due to being sick and generally having a bit of a shit time.
I am a big horror fan, BUT, I think it is actually really hard to be a horror fan. Most horrors are shit.
I mean Paranormal Activity started out looking promising...then they gave it a story line. I know this sounds ridiculous but I hate that it had a story line. I mean, I think it would have just been so much scarier if they were just haunted. You know what I mean? Things are so much scarier when there is no explanation and stuff is just happening. Yeah, it was attached to her and that's fine, but could it not have just attached itself to her because it's an evil demon and can? It couldn't just pick her and that be that? Ugh, there was so much room for my imagination to run wild with that but the story line ruined it for me. Bad times.
I did watch The Possession Of Michael King the other day with my mate, he thought it was pretty scary, and it kinda was....until like 3/4 of the way in. I don't wanna ruin this for you so I won't, but once again, if I had just seen whatever happening and didn't hear it too, it would have been much scarier. I did think it was alright though.
Obviously this is just my opinion and I can scare the crap out of myself pretty easily if I want to, but horror films lack that for me. Once you clarify that there is a justified reason for these 'happenings' shall we say? then I lose all interest and you just ruined the whole movie for me, it's not longer scary.
I understand this doesn't work for everything. Like The Conjuring, watched it soooo many times and I think it's actually pretty decent but why couldn't it just be like 'Oh, this house has evil spirits in it'....etc, I don';t need to know why they're there or about curses just OMG THIS IS HAPPENING WHAAAAAAT??? Mad, how scary.
I don't know. I am in no way a film expert. I just think I would like to finish a film sometime still being scared and playing parts over and over in my head when I go to bed and thinking about what else could have happened?? You know?
Anyway.
All About Evil. Not a horror as such. Well yeah, I guess it kind of fits into Comedy Horror. I seriously LOVE this film. I obviously don't watch it to get scared but hey, Natasha Lyonne is in it (I ADORE her), and I just think it has a really cool old school feel about it! Even the colours and the setting have that old horror vibe.
I have also become addicted to Parks and Recreation. I mean addicted. I love it. It never fails to make me laugh. The Pawnee Zoo ep has to be my favourite so far!! I just love Amy Poehler so, so much. Aubrey Plaza is hiarious in it too, her character doesn't really do much in the first season but she gets so much better!!
Also loving Banged Up Abroad. This is my mates doing. He's been watching it again and now that it's on youtube it's always there so if I'm bored I'll shove one on. It makes me so angry though, because Everyone's like 'OMG it must be so horrible being locked up abroad and the prisons must be awful' but er....like 75% of the time, it's like, 'Well, maybe don't do shit you know is illegal??'. Snakes on a Plane. What an ep. I fumed through this whole episode and literally would punch this guy if I saw him. Unlikely, but I would.
Anything you've been loving lately???
Sunday, 7 September 2014
Sunday, 31 August 2014
August Favourites.
Some of my favourites this month.
I have a fair few lip products but to be honest I mainly stick to what I'm comfortable with everyday. However, I've been playing around this month, I'm seriously loving either really red, or dark lips.
Here are my faves at the moment!!
L-R; MakeUp Revolution Rebel With A Cause, Rimmel Kate 107, MAC Satin Red, MAC Hue.
Rebel With A Cause is a new one I've found just in this last week, and it is honestly a gorgeous colour, I'm not sure about the consistency yet, but that may just be because I love matte too much, but as I said, amazing colour, and for £1 who can complain?!
These three I have had for a while now and I haven't paid them as much attention as I maybe should have, but I have rediscovered them this last month!
The Kate Moss one is just amazing. I don't even know what to say because it's just so perfect for me! I even put this on under 'Revenge' for a deeper colour, and it lasts a little longer then too!
MAC. Well, to be honest, I'm so bored of MAC lipstick, you can get so many quality dupes for such a better price. BUT I do love the ones I have, Satin red is just SO red, I really like it, but I don't like that its not matte.....and although I just said I'm bored of MAC lipsticks, I am seriously considering Ruby Woo. It is matte and just a seriously gorgeous shade and I haven't found a dupe that I love.
Then we have Hue, I really like Hue, this is just a simple, everyday colour .
L-R; Illamasqua cream blusher 'Rude', MakeUp Revolution blusher 'Treat', Eyelure Brow Shapers, (bottom left) MakeUp Revolution Mono Eyeshadow Eden.
So I've only just got my hands on MakeUp Revolution and I must admit, I really like it so far! This blusher goes a long way so I only need a tiny bit but it gives me a lovely fresh glow and the eyeshadow is just the most gorgeous green, perfect for a smokey eye with a little bit of colour.
Eyelure Brow Shapers have saved me! We all know how scary it is when you have good brows and you go get them done and you're terrified it's gonna go wrong....well mine did at christmas and my left one still hasn't recovered so I really don't feel like going to get them done any time soon. I found these in Superdrug for about...maybe £3? and they're so good! they're shaped with an arch and luckily it suit my eyebrows perfectly! I got my friend to do mine for me and they worked a treat and I still have all the eyebrows I want but just a lot neater!!
And my trusty Illamasqua cream blusher! Best bargain I think I've bought this year, was £5 in the sale and a little goes a long way!! I use my small E.L.F stipple brush to apply it and it lasts all day!
I have a fair few lip products but to be honest I mainly stick to what I'm comfortable with everyday. However, I've been playing around this month, I'm seriously loving either really red, or dark lips.
Here are my faves at the moment!!
L-R; MUA Luxe Velvet Lips in Kooky and Reckless, MUA matte in Fawn Fancy, Collection in Revenge and E.L.F Lip Definer & Shaper.
Matte Lips are my all time favourite ever. I just find them a lot less messy.
Kooky and Reckless are the two shades I just HAD to have when I first saw the MUA velvets online and they didn't disappoint!!
I wear the MUA Matte Fancy Fawn all the time, this is just a great everyday lipstick, it's really subtle.
Now, I was feeling brave and I am a total goth at heart, so I bought this Collection Lipstick in 'Revenge' a while ago, this isn't matte but it is absolutely beautiful, it's not as dark as I expected but more of a dark red, wine colour. I love it. It's perfect for nights out!
The E.L.F Lips Definer & Shaper seriously helps if you want that Kylie Jenner effect! I am obsessed with this.
Rebel With A Cause is a new one I've found just in this last week, and it is honestly a gorgeous colour, I'm not sure about the consistency yet, but that may just be because I love matte too much, but as I said, amazing colour, and for £1 who can complain?!
These three I have had for a while now and I haven't paid them as much attention as I maybe should have, but I have rediscovered them this last month!
The Kate Moss one is just amazing. I don't even know what to say because it's just so perfect for me! I even put this on under 'Revenge' for a deeper colour, and it lasts a little longer then too!
MAC. Well, to be honest, I'm so bored of MAC lipstick, you can get so many quality dupes for such a better price. BUT I do love the ones I have, Satin red is just SO red, I really like it, but I don't like that its not matte.....and although I just said I'm bored of MAC lipsticks, I am seriously considering Ruby Woo. It is matte and just a seriously gorgeous shade and I haven't found a dupe that I love.
Then we have Hue, I really like Hue, this is just a simple, everyday colour .
L-R; Illamasqua cream blusher 'Rude', MakeUp Revolution blusher 'Treat', Eyelure Brow Shapers, (bottom left) MakeUp Revolution Mono Eyeshadow Eden.
So I've only just got my hands on MakeUp Revolution and I must admit, I really like it so far! This blusher goes a long way so I only need a tiny bit but it gives me a lovely fresh glow and the eyeshadow is just the most gorgeous green, perfect for a smokey eye with a little bit of colour.
Eyelure Brow Shapers have saved me! We all know how scary it is when you have good brows and you go get them done and you're terrified it's gonna go wrong....well mine did at christmas and my left one still hasn't recovered so I really don't feel like going to get them done any time soon. I found these in Superdrug for about...maybe £3? and they're so good! they're shaped with an arch and luckily it suit my eyebrows perfectly! I got my friend to do mine for me and they worked a treat and I still have all the eyebrows I want but just a lot neater!!
And my trusty Illamasqua cream blusher! Best bargain I think I've bought this year, was £5 in the sale and a little goes a long way!! I use my small E.L.F stipple brush to apply it and it lasts all day!
Barry M Nail Paint Raspberry
This is literally all I have worn all summer long! One of my favourite all time nail colours!!
Favourite snack and drinks right now!!! This Elderflower water from Aldi is a hangover godsend!! I hate normal water but I can drink about 3 bottles of this a day! I probably shouldn't, but I do so....
And Peanut Butter M&M's like seriously, I found these in B&M for £1 a box.... I stocked up....
Oh...and some of my favourite books in the background there....
So there you have it! My August favourites!!
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