Insomia and TV

Well, I'm back to not sleeping very much at all ....SO.... I've been catching up on a looooad of TV shows and I thought I'd share my faves!!



I've become obsessed with  My Mad Fat Diary on E4. And yes, it is for blatantly obvious reasons. I feel like I can relate to Rae's character a lot.
I love the way she thinks about things and the way she talks about things.
Then there's the whole Rae & Finn thing.
I am in love with Nico Mirallegro. Like, I love him. I don't even care. I just do.

And then there's the soundtrack!!! It's like listening to my childhood!!! AMAZING.

Then there's Parenthood.

What a cast!! I absolutely adore this show, I don't know anybody else that watches it but I love it.

I'm a huge fan of Lauren Graham and Mae Whitman and the fact they're mother and daughter just puts the icing on the cake! 

I'm now caught up on all five seasons!! If you want a show to watch that will make you laugh and cry and wish you had a big family then this is the one!

Revenge.

I know, I know, I'm late to the party at Grayson Manor but hey! at least I showed up!!

I decided to give this a go on a whim while I was waiting for Pretty Little Liars to come back on and I got sucked straight in! 

I can't even give you a reason why I like it. It's so absurd. but I do! 

The Haunting Of....

I love anything about ghosts and hauntings etc. I have ever since I was a little kid. Anything that makes me feel a little nervy or unsettled is great!

I love Kim Russo (@THEHAPPYMEDIUM on twitter) who is a phychic medium and she takes celebrities back to the place they had a paranormal experience and she invesigates what happened and if there are still spirits around.

Obviously this won't be everyone's cup of tea but I think she's the sweetest!! ...and yes, I've watched EVERY episode.

Pretty Little Liars

This is an obvious one. I've watched this since the very first episode aired and as much as it's doing my nut in at the minute, I can't stop watching because it'll drive me crazy if I find out who 'A' is on twitter or something. I'll have to witness it with my own eyes after investing this much time!

True Detective

Matthew McConaughey and Woody Harrelson????

What's not to love??? It's kind of like a film that was just waayyyy too long so they've chopped it up! It's a gritty, serial killer, detective series and I love it!

I have been watching more but I don't want to make this too long! Maybe I'll do another one sometime or with the films I watch when I can't sleep!

Now, go grab a cup of tea - "tea fixes everything", as Finn says ;) and get comfy and check them out!!

Let me know what you think!!

xo

If You're Happy & You Know It Clap Your Hands.....

Are you happy?

I never know where I am to be honest.

Sometimes I am really, really happy and will just get a little light bulb moment and I'll stop in my tracks and  just grin and feel soooo good, then other times, not so much.

I plan on my little light bulb moment becoming a more permanent fixture this year. Obviously I know you can't be happy ALL the time. But why not like 99% of the time??

I've let other people bring me down and make me feel insecure and sad and really bad about myself, be that me feeling like I'm not good enough for them or about how I look.

I've decided no more though. Enough is enough.  I'm at a point where I've stopped and had a word with myself.

I had to question why certain people could make me feel certain ways, and then I realised, it was because I let them.

I was always really down and it was horrible. I struggle with anxiety and depression anyway, but it wasn't that.

They made me feel soooo good when we first met and then that wore off pretty quickly so I started putting it down to me, I was doing everything wrong, I must have changed in some way?? It never occurred to me that it was the other person changing. So I tried and tried and still couldn't figure it out, which brought me even lower because if I didn't know what it was, how could I fix it?

It's only recently I realised how much of my time I actually spent feeling really sad about how this now completely insignificant person thought/felt about me.

What a waste!!!!

All those nights I sat in my room not wanting to leave, I could have been out, moving on, moving up!

It made me really angry that I actually wasted my time in the first place, but you learn and grow I guess, so it wasn't a total waste, just went on a lot longer than it should have.

I know now, that anything is an upgrade from that situation and as long as I can be happy with myself, if someone does change the way they think/feel about me then there's not a lot I can do about that. That's them, not me. So I don't think I'll be wasting much more time worrying about it.

Life really is just too short to waste time worrying about other people you have no control over.

I'm moving on and feel pretty good about it, out with the old in with the new ;)

The funny thing is, I now know it wasn't me at all. I tried and was nothing but nice. I suppose some people will always just be wolves in sheep's clothing.

So, FUCK IT. Just LIVE and breathe and be grateful for the good things you have in life....If you stop and think about it, you'll see you have a lot more than you realise.

I am so thankful for who and what I have, I really am a lucky girl.