SO I hope you all had a lovely Christmas and New Year.
I learned a lot from New Year this year, about some people I
It made me so sad for a while, but you know what?? I've been feeling this sad since this person came into my life so I've kinda just turned sad into angry, which probably isn't healthy, but it feels much better than feeling super shitty about myself.
SO yes, things are a little different. And it's good.
A lot of my friends are going through things with boy's at the minute, and obviously it all feels like life and death because we're at that horrible age where we feel like we should be getting on with things by now and being grown ups and starting to get serious, and believe me, I've been feeling that way the last 2 years myself but hearing them all upset and stressing about things and trying to make things work has really made me re think things. I loved someone, but I wasn't happy. When they were saying they loved me and meant it, it was just words. I know that now. I just don't get it, if you're this stressed over things so often, why are you doing it? It can't be good for you? and it can't be what's right for you? I understand relationships go through patches, of course they do, but you have to look at it realistically if its every week or two?
I know some of them just don't want to be alone after being with someone for so long but I'd rather be alone than treated like a second thought all the time.
ANYWAY, I'm just rambling there. Yes, I have fewer people in my life now...kind of.
I recently caught up with an old friend and although we're just friends, he opened doors for me, moved my chair and bought our tickets and stuff and I was sooooo weirded out. I have never experienced that before. Honestly. When I told my friends, they were genuinely sad that I was so shocked by this. I am not high maintenance in any way, I am happy with food, tv and a laugh, so I think I've always just settled and assumed that because that's what I'm used to, that's just how it is. But it was so nice, I can't even explain.
I thought all chivalry was dead. Apparently not, and I am SO glad!
I've not been up to much really this month.
I have got a few things in the sales which I will share with you in another post or two when I get them all together!
I've bought a fair bit of make up, some clothes and bedding and.....erm.... I don't even know!
I haven't really made any resolutions this year either, I just want to make myself happier this year, I think that's my plan.
I made myself a playlist earlier and I've got it on now and I LOVE it.
It's got random stuff on it like;
The Eagles, Taking Back Sunday, The Used, Fleetwood Mac, Now, Now, Cyndi Lauper, Avril Lavigne, Jack off Jill, Marilyn Manson, Kittie, Ashlee Simpson, Lily Allen, The Kooks, The Libertines, Razorlight, InMe, Demi Lovato, The Killers, The Strokes, Brand New, No Doubt, Frank Sinatra, Dean Martin, Dolly Parton, Patsy Cline, Ellie Goulding, Glassjaw, Norah Jones, B52's, Funeral For A Friend, The Verve, Otis Redding, Lorde, R.E.M, Drake, The Cranberries.......
To name a few haha.
It's public and it's just called 'playlist' haha good luck finding it! If you do though, it's a good'un!
Well, I'm gonna get on with my room listening to my playlist haha.
Nice to just post something :)
